One of League of Legends most fabled AD carries is going through a rough patch, to say the least. His team, Fnatic, is in the midst of one of their worst splits in team history. They recently lost to ROCCAT 2-1, the first time they've ever been beaten by the team. During the team's offseason, they replaced everyone but one player.
Martin "Rekkles" Larsson stands alone as the last member of Fnatic's 2016 EU LCS Summer Split team.
Prior to Fnatic's Week 7 matchup against Unicorns of Love, Rekkles took to Twitter to vent a little.
I've been dealing with a personal matter lately and just getting up in the morning as been a struggle in itself.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 7, 2017
However as with everything else, I'll fight my way through it and come back stronger.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 7, 2017
With that in mind, I haven't been able to contribute as much as I would've liked during the days— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 7, 2017
But the guys are doing great and hopefully it won't have to much of an impact during this week's games against UOL— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 7, 2017
Along with my activity on Social Media for a longer period of time— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 7, 2017
The team would end up losing the series to Unicorns of Love, 2-1. Again, Rekkles went to Twitter and expressed his feelings again. This time, a little more in depth, revealing a side of himself that people may not have seen before.
I'm usually quite good at keeping myself together after tough losses, but tonight is not one of those days.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 10, 2017
Haven't been myself after my individual barrier got cracked in the beginning of the week so I guess it's understandable.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 10, 2017
Sadly it doesn't make it any easier, if anything it just makes things more complicated than they actually are.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 10, 2017
Not sure where to go from here other than the fact that I'll have to get through this. Just hope it's not going to tear me apart.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 10, 2017
He then Tweeted something that many should take note of, regardless if you're a fan of Rekkles or esports as a whole.
The 20-year-old Swede is a proud player. Anybody can realize that. However, it takes guts for a player to take care of himself under immense pressure and that's something people should respect.
Agreed with myself at the beginning of my career that I would end things on a high note, but health and happiness above all.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 11, 2017
I would never be able to live with myself if I were to give up now, but if things remain the same I might have to reconsider.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 11, 2017
Rekkles then admitted something in his future plans that people see often as a weakness when it's really not. Having problems with your mental health is not a problem. It's only a problem to those who are ignorant towards the issue and see it that way.
I've decided that I'll seek help from a therapist. It should never go as far as it did last night.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 11, 2017
I spoke to one in the past during my school years when I was struggling in a similar fashion and it got me out of it.— Martin Larsson (@RekklesLoL) March 11, 2017
Admitting you need help is not a weakness.
It's a strength.
In an interview with The Score Esports, Rekkles admitted that he thought he had more to give as a player to the team. He also spoke of a three-year contract that he put on hold because he's been dealing with personal issues. He's not afraid to pass up a contract and security in order to better himself and others around him.
According to WWG's League of Legends Writer and Analyst, Rekkles has been under immense pressure, even before he stepped on an LCS stage. "Very few players in the game's history have suffered under that weight of expectations that Rekkles has. Even before he took to the stage with the Fnatic uniform he was hyped as one of the best ADCs in the history of Europe."
We often get wrapped up in this world where just because someone is on a stage or is in the public eye, they're invincible. We prop them higher and higher and idolize them. They start to become less of a human to us and more of an "it". The human aspect is completely eliminated and we sometimes forget that these people we look up to are just like you and I. Living beings with emotions and feelings.
Kudos has to be given to Rekkles for sharing his feelings and admitting he's seeking help. Something Rekkles perhaps doesn't realize is that not only is he helping himself by speaking to others but he's actually helping others around him. Perhaps it will inspire those who look up to him to actually seek out help that they once were afraid or ashamed of getting.
"I am not afraid of storms for I am learning how to sail my ship." — Amy March